Finals week, oh what fun...

So as finals week has just begun for the many unfortunate students attending BYU, I can't help but think, why? What is the purpose of having cumulative finals? Why aren't we just tested on what we learned since the last test? And if you are going to have a cumulative final, is it really fair that the last test in that class was only a mere 5 days earlier? As I am sitting here reviewing for a final while trying to make a good outline for another, I wonder why everything seems to come down to the final? I also wonder why my boss gives me all the work to do, and wants it all done before the end of the semester. There is no way in this world I can take all my finals, do well on them, and then get everything ready for the next semester at work all in a week. I don't mind doing the work after finals, but that just isn't going to fly, now is it.
I guess the purpose of this post is to say, I am supposed to be working at least 20 hours so that I can pay for tuition and food and what not, and at the same time studying/reviewing for my finals, getting enough sleep, eating well, doing some physical activity, and getting everything ready for Christmas. Is this even possible? No wonder I'm losing all my hair...

Trying to trick us?

I am baffled by professors who try to trick us on tests. By doing this I don't think that they quite understand that by doing this they aren't testing how well we know the information, but they are indeed testing us on how well we test. Now does this really make sense? I don't think so.

Life is Too Time Consuming...

So each day, I wake up early get ready to leave and am out the door by 7:45. I don't get back till after 6 or 7 most days, and some days as late at 10. I have no time for anything. How am I supposed to enjoy life when I'm stuck in the library for hours everyday, more than half of them working, and the other half trying to stay on top the mounds of homework that every professor gives me because each of them think that their class is the most important. Well I've got news for all of them, I will probably not use much, if anything, of what you teach me. At least this semester. What do they really know anyway. I get a grad student for a teacher. He doesn't know the subject fully because his emphasis is in just a small portion of the subject. So what does he do, he takes quotes and definitions out of the book, puts them on PowerPoint, and then expects us to sit there for two and a half hours while he requotes everything I just read. I'm paying good money to get a good education, why is this guy teaching? Why doesn't the university hire on some people who know how to teach, not just give your grad students free tuition if they will teach a class. Come on now.

A time for marriage

So it has come to my attention that this is the time to get married. There has been an explosion of recently announced engagements and marriages. I'm just not sure how I feel about it. I am honestly not that excited about it.

Time to Run Away

So I've done some thinking and I think it is time for me to run away. I think it will give me a good chance to become the person that I want to become. But I'm also a little apprehensive, if I leave here that could lead to me being the opposite of what I really want to be. But I am almost 21, and I think I could use some time away from here. I think maybe after I graduate I will leave for a few months, maybe august to may, and then come back to get my BSN from somewhere where they offer an accelerated program. Oh man, I think it is time.

A little advice

So I have learned in the past few weeks, that when you are looking for somewhere to live, make sure that the people you are moving in with are not only nice people, but that they have some similarities as you. The people I live with now are all amazing girls, but we are so different it makes it really hard to be happy living here. I am much more outgoing, and have a lot more energy than them, and coming home here after a hard day of work, just isn't inviting, and that just isn't the way it is supposed to be. I need to number one find a way to get out of here, and number two do it so that it doesn't hurt any one's feelings. I just don't think that is going to be possible. But honestly, I can't live like this.

Cooking for One is No Fun

I love to cook, and let's be honest cooking for one person isn't fun. In fact it is very much the opposite. I really would love to be able to cook for other people. In fact I really wouldn't mind cooking for me and someone else. Perhaps one day. Or maybe I will just adopt children, or open up my own catering business. That would let me cook for others, I guess that is my only option.

Work

So I have now been at work for 12 hours today, and I still have 2 more to go. I'm tired and really wishing that I could go home, but working so many today means only 4 hours tomorrow. Yay!

Television

So I have moved to an apartment without a tv, and I have realized what a blessing it is to be able to have one. Not only can it be a very relaxing things, where you don't have to think, but it can also be entertaining and informative. Also as I work on really dull and monotonous work projects I could be watching movies, or the news. I really need to bring my tv over. That is that.

Summer time

So I always enjoy the summer time. No school, good weather-these are all good things. But when all I do is work, life gets boring. So I add more things on my plate, and then I get stressed, at the time when I'm supposed to be relaxing. No good. And then there is always the fact of change. Which we all know I hate. I finally got a roommate, she is really cool, but very very different then anyone I have ever lived with before. She got back from her mission two weeks ago, and is still in missionary mode, but I kind of like it. It helps me to remember what I am supposed to be doing. And I spend most of my time next door anyway, so I'm not there a lot, especially when her finace comes over. But they are both cool people, so that should be ok. But sometimes I really just feel alone. Most of my closest friends are not here, and the friends who are here have no idea what is going on in my life. So that makes it kind of hard. But sometimes I think that people like to have someone who knows them really well around to just be there for them. And I always have my friends from home, and they are amazing, but they are also very busy. So that again can be scary. And my only one issue is that I don't have a TV, and I like to just sit and relax when I've had a long day, or I want to watch the news, or I like to watch American Idol. And I can't watch them over here(being next door) so hopefully my roommates don't care if I bring my TV, because sometimes I just really need it.

One more year!!!

I only have one year left here as an undergrad. So much to do and so little time. Man I should make a list. YAY!!!!!

Saying Goodbye

I think that saying goodbye to people you really care about and won't see for a very long time is very hard. And sometimes annoying. I had to say goodbye to one of my freshman roommates, who has been one of my best friends for the last 3 years. Well this year she is getting married, and so you know what that means. I will be at least 10 months before she will hang out again. She is going home for the summer, and then getting married in August. And of course I will be going to the wedding, but things are never going to be the same between us, and I'm really going to miss that. And then I didn't even get a proper goodbye, which makes me sad. And then I got up super early this morning to say goodbye to one of my roommates, who isn't coming back till after her mission. Basically I hate change.

Finals

So I have one final left, and it might be the death of me. I hate chemisty, I never want to take it again, and yet I really have no choice. When am I ever going to use this stuff? Never. That is right, and it can get frustrating for me to study for hours and hours and feel like I'm really ready, and then when it is over. I just want to cry. I hate finals. And I'm so glad that I only have one more.

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