Friday, March 28, 2008

I've been tagged

Thanks to my sister, I have been tagged. So here ya go.
My Favorite Color: Ever since I was a little child my favorite color has been pink...ok not. Blue, my color of choice in all things.





My Favorite Animal: Shasta the Liger or my babies. Either of which are quite amazing.










A Bad Habit: Jumping to conclusions. I am really good at that. No matter what the situation, I jump not just to conclusions, but the worst possible conclusion.








Favorite Food: I love food. I love to make food and eat it. Lately I've been on a pretty decent health craze, and vegetables have become my new staple.







Favorite Hobby: In the little amount of spare time I have, I love to play my guitar, play any sports that I can, and cook food for people.


My Favorite Song: Can't honestly say that I have one favorite song, I really enjoy music. So I listen to a very broad range, but the song of the past year has been Crazy by Patsy Cline.

My Favorite Author: All I read right now are text books. So technically I don't have a favorite right now, but I do really enjoy C.S. Lewis, the Bronte Sisters, Jane Austin, etc.


My Favorite Dessert: I love cheesecake, and my newest favorite are my Lemon Strawberry Cream Cups. Yummy.



A Picture of Me: I'm not photogenic, plus I'm at work, so no pictures of me right now.
I'm now tagging Bryan Stiles, Kirsten Clark, and Elise Crane. Because I know you all read this on occasion. Ha.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Somedays

These pictures make me wonder, what exactly is in our water in Salem.


And somedays when I wake up in the morning, this is exactly how I feel. For some people (mainly my roommate) this is what she looks like every morning. And those are the days that I just want to stay home, because let's be honest, someone is gonna make fun of me.


Saturday, March 22, 2008

Friendship and Dating

This past week I have had a number of conversations with multiple people about friendships and dating. My most recent conversation was with my good friend Bryan, we had a deep discussion about this way too late at night. However, some of the things that I learned from Bryan, I thought might be interesting to the rest of the world.

First off, flirting. Webster says that to flirt is to show superficial or casual interest or liking. More than once I have heard people say, "I don't even know how to flirt." These are usually the people who are constantly flirting with any member of the opposite sex that moves. I had a roommate like this for two years. Don't get me wrong this girl was an amazing person, but she just couldn't turn it off. Bryan was telling me that he doesn't even know how to flirt, that he never learned, but I'm not gonna lie. I have definitely seen that boy flirt, so it makes me wonder how does one learn to flirt. Flirting is where one person can get another person's attention. So basically what I'm saying is I don't understand flirting.

The biggest concept we talked about was levels of friendship, and falling for those who are good friends. After a group discussion at work about friendship, it has been decided that girls and guys can't pass a certain level of friendship, because after a certain point one or the other will most likely fall for the other one. So the levels of friendship are acquaintances, talking buddies(the ones in your classes where you talk to them but would never hang out with outside of class), friends, good friends, pretty good friends, best friends, then the ultimate level of friendship, marriage. So that magic level is pretty good friends. That level is the beyond good ward friends friend, if that makes any sense. This happens in movies all the time, and usually things in movies aren't real, but I would have to say that this concept is actually true, it does actually happen. By the time that you get to that point of friendship you know the other person really well. And it just so happens that by knowing someone that well, if they are a good person you might just fall for them. So when it gets to that point, what are you supposed to do? This is a concept Bryan and I discussed in some detail. How does one tell a really good friend that they want to be more than really good friends? A simply complex question.

For those of you who have seen Win a Date with Tad Hamilton, the scene where Pete tells Rosalee how he feels, I have heard multiple people suggest to others that that would be the best way to go about the deed. When suggesting that to others, I have always gotten a good response, so perhaps that is the way to do it. And hopefully as long as you are good enough friends, which at this point we have decided that you are, the outcome wouldn't be as bad as you are thinking in your head right now that it would be. My friend told me, if this were to happen to him and he were interested then it would probably be pretty simple, however if he weren't interested he said he would "have to let her know... nicely that he wasn't interested beyond friends and if could be awkward for a while,but I'd probably make efforts to get past that awkwardness and hope she would too." Now as I discussed this with my roommate we decided that that isn't of much comfort. And so after all of this, my original thought about this situation returned, just don't do it. Just wonder your whole life, and hope that one day you will get over it. So that is what I learned from my experiences this past week. Sorry if they don't make as much sense on paper (well internet) than they did in my mind.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

It's amazing how many things...

You can come to regret many things. And most of the time we don't think about it. Things happen and we get over them, and move on with our lives, however a few times a year, I take it upon myself to sit and really think about life. This usually leads to me thinking of all the the things that I wish I was doing, or wasn't doing. All the things that I want to do more or less of, and things that have happened that I either wish would or wouldn't have happened, you get the point.
Well as I mentioned at an earlier time, I am graduating in August, and that means I am finishing up my career here at BYU. It has been four short years, they were good though, and there are some regrets that I have that very possibly might have made that made the past four years not as supreme as they could have been.
On a side note, it makes me wonder if things were supposed to happen this way to teach me things. Then I think, no way, divine intervention is supposed to make life better, right? I honestly don't know anymore.
Back to where I was before, my regrets, at least my big ones are:
Not getting enough sleep every single year.
I made a new semester resolution every semester to get to bed earlier and get up earlier. And every semester I did a decent job for about a week and a half or two, and then I fell right back into my late night ways. Very bad thing for a college student. And now I know that even more as I am writing a paper for a class on sleep, and how beneficial it really is, and how what we do during the day can affect our sleep, and I bet the last four years would have been a lot happier in general if i had gotten 8 hours a night.
Not speaking up in class, or using my professors as resources for good.
I like to think that I am generally a pretty smart person, and if you know me at all, you know I can be very opinionated. And I just about always have something to say about everything, but just about every class I have been in, I haven't made more than one comment a semester, if that. It makes me wonder if I would have done a little more active participation in class if my gpa would be a bit higher. Plus now as I am applying for grad schools and nursing schools I need academic references, and I have like one. Big mistake.
Not being more social in my wards.
Don't get me wrong, I go to church, I go to fhe, I go to ward activities, people know who I am. But I haven't made as many really good friends as I could have. And now as I am getting to the point where everyone my "age" is graduating and moving on. So you can start to make good friends and then all the sudden you move on or they move on. That is crappy. We all need good friends to joke around with, who will listen to you, and who you can listen to. I really appreciate friends. I have about 15 years of built up emotion that I need to get out, and that is exactly what friends are good for. And the best kind of friend is someone who thinks along the same lines as you, and who is just a good person. I'm have a friend like this right now. She is one of those people who is a fantastic person. It is just too bad, that we are both graduating. You never know what that means, graduation can lead you just about anywhere.
My last regret is not outing my roommate who broke the honor code.
And everyone probably thinks, I've had a roommate who broke the honor code on one occasion, I'm sure I have even broke it before. Staying a few minutes late in some guy's apartment or something, but I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about hard core breaking of the honor code. This girl's actions left me scarred, and I had the worst semester of my life. That is when it all started to go downhill. If I would have pushed my bishop, and talked to the honor code office earlier and gotten things fixed earlier. Life would be different I believe. If I would have made someone do something about it in October when I first had my suspicions, instead of waiting till January.
Well those are my main regrets for the past four years, now that they are out there, let's hope that I can move past them, and move on with my life.

Real Life after Graduation

I officially applied for graduating in August yesterday. After talking to one of the counselors in my college to make sure that I am eligible, two things happened. First, I started freaking out about the fact that I am graduating from college and I have to grow up and be a real person, and second, I thought of all the things I regret of doing or not doing over the past four years (this will be another thought another time).
So let's first discuss my first thought process. For the past 18 years or so, I have been in school. I have worked and what not, but everything has always focused around school. So now school is almost over and what am I supposed to do? Well the answer that everyone gives me is, do more school. And that is exactly what I want to do, but only problem is what do I want to do? i could go to nursing school, I could go to grad school in a number of areas. Which one is right? Well I am going to take the GRE this summer and if I do well enough, I'm hoping that I might be able to get into a decent school. My GPA isn't the best because of my problem with taking tests. I want to get out of Utah, but I don't want to leave. I don't' know what to do, and I really need to decide. People all around me all ready have a plan for their life, they know what they want to do, and they know when they want to do it. What is wrong with me that I have no idea. I've always had interest in many things, and i like to consider myself a fairly intelligent individual, although my grades might not say so. I do know the information and I do retain it. Which is more than I can say for a lot of other people. So I guess in the end, I am thinking grad school, and I'm thinking exercise physiology (it fascinates me). So I have to do really well on the GRE this summer and then pray hard that this is the right thing, and that through some divine intervention I will get into a school I apply to. And that is a whole different issue, which schools do I apply to? Being a real person is stressful.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Laziness at work

So recently I have been thinking about my job. I have worked here for over two years now, and have been awarded for my hard work a few times. But I was thinking today as I am trying to get someone to work for me, that I have taken classes for just about every person I have worked with when they have something come up. I understand that that happens, and I usually feel bad that no one else will take the class for them, so I take it. My boss even knows that if a class gets added late and he needs someone to work it, if I'm available, he calls me and of course I take it, because I always take it. I'm trustworthy and hard working, so pass the buck to Amy, she will take care of it. But as I struggle maybe once every two months or so to find someone to take one of my classes because something comes up, it makes me wonder why? Why won't anyone else take my class when I am always so willing to take theirs? Is it selfishness? Is it laziness? Is is just plain rudeness? I don't know, but it surely bothers me. Unfortunately it is just another unfair thing in my life that there is nothing I can do anything about.