NIU Shooting

I really can't believe that so many shootings happen. Within the last year there has been at least 2 school shootings, and the one at trolley square. I don't understand what posseses these guys to just go and shoot people they don't even know. I'm wondering if there is research out there on these types of things.
Everytime I hear of a campus shooting, it not only makes me feel deeply sad for the students and families of that school, but it scares me. What if some wacko sees this happen, and decides he/she should do the same thing here at my school. That is frightening.
I was also wondering why all the shootings are always committed by males? I know that they are more aggressive and whatnot, but is it something about the male gender that makes them want to stop taking their meds, or to take revenge on someone?
Northern Illinois University, we are all deeply sorry and we hope that you will all recover from this.

Finals week, oh what fun...

So as finals week has just begun for the many unfortunate students attending BYU, I can't help but think, why? What is the purpose of having cumulative finals? Why aren't we just tested on what we learned since the last test? And if you are going to have a cumulative final, is it really fair that the last test in that class was only a mere 5 days earlier? As I am sitting here reviewing for a final while trying to make a good outline for another, I wonder why everything seems to come down to the final? I also wonder why my boss gives me all the work to do, and wants it all done before the end of the semester. There is no way in this world I can take all my finals, do well on them, and then get everything ready for the next semester at work all in a week. I don't mind doing the work after finals, but that just isn't going to fly, now is it.
I guess the purpose of this post is to say, I am supposed to be working at least 20 hours so that I can pay for tuition and food and what not, and at the same time studying/reviewing for my finals, getting enough sleep, eating well, doing some physical activity, and getting everything ready for Christmas. Is this even possible? No wonder I'm losing all my hair...

Trying to trick us?

I am baffled by professors who try to trick us on tests. By doing this I don't think that they quite understand that by doing this they aren't testing how well we know the information, but they are indeed testing us on how well we test. Now does this really make sense? I don't think so.

Life is Too Time Consuming...

So each day, I wake up early get ready to leave and am out the door by 7:45. I don't get back till after 6 or 7 most days, and some days as late at 10. I have no time for anything. How am I supposed to enjoy life when I'm stuck in the library for hours everyday, more than half of them working, and the other half trying to stay on top the mounds of homework that every professor gives me because each of them think that their class is the most important. Well I've got news for all of them, I will probably not use much, if anything, of what you teach me. At least this semester. What do they really know anyway. I get a grad student for a teacher. He doesn't know the subject fully because his emphasis is in just a small portion of the subject. So what does he do, he takes quotes and definitions out of the book, puts them on PowerPoint, and then expects us to sit there for two and a half hours while he requotes everything I just read. I'm paying good money to get a good education, why is this guy teaching? Why doesn't the university hire on some people who know how to teach, not just give your grad students free tuition if they will teach a class. Come on now.

A time for marriage

So it has come to my attention that this is the time to get married. There has been an explosion of recently announced engagements and marriages. I'm just not sure how I feel about it. I am honestly not that excited about it.

Time to Run Away

So I've done some thinking and I think it is time for me to run away. I think it will give me a good chance to become the person that I want to become. But I'm also a little apprehensive, if I leave here that could lead to me being the opposite of what I really want to be. But I am almost 21, and I think I could use some time away from here. I think maybe after I graduate I will leave for a few months, maybe august to may, and then come back to get my BSN from somewhere where they offer an accelerated program. Oh man, I think it is time.

A little advice

So I have learned in the past few weeks, that when you are looking for somewhere to live, make sure that the people you are moving in with are not only nice people, but that they have some similarities as you. The people I live with now are all amazing girls, but we are so different it makes it really hard to be happy living here. I am much more outgoing, and have a lot more energy than them, and coming home here after a hard day of work, just isn't inviting, and that just isn't the way it is supposed to be. I need to number one find a way to get out of here, and number two do it so that it doesn't hurt any one's feelings. I just don't think that is going to be possible. But honestly, I can't live like this.